30th June 2008 - Monday@2151hrs

I can't comprehend just how must have felt
For the loss of someone you love
This sorrowful time must still feel unreal
As you're looking for strength from above

I hope from my heart that your pain will decrease
That your spirit will gain strength again
And I pray that your faith will create inner peace
And that heaven will send blessings

Until then if you need me to lighten your load
I'm waiting to come to your aid
Just call on me and I'll walk down that road
Until the dark times start to fade

I'm sorry to hear the passing of your grandfather. Be strong and take good care of yourself ok...

28th June 2008 - Saturday@0002hrs

Feels like a song without the words
A man without a soul
A bird without its wings
A heart without a home
A knight without a sword
A sky without the sun
A ship beneath the waves
A child who lost its way
A door without a key
A face without a name
A breath without the air
Everyday seems to be the same, since you've gone away...

I'm still looking for a reason to wake up in the morning
As you used to be the one that put a smile on my face
There's no words that could describe
How much I miss those days

Often people said that a man can lose his mind living in the pain
Recalling the times gone by
After these time
I'm crying in the rain and on my knees again

22th June 2008 - Sunday@2315hrs

20th June 2008 - Friday@2144hrs

I was thinking about you today
And I do that a lot it seems
You are always in my heart by day
At night you drift into my dreams

I can't shake these feelings for you
But then I'd never had a desire to
The blessing of our love and companionship
Is something I want you share with you

I want to feel you close to me
When you are so far away
I hope you feel me in your heart
As you travel your path today

Footprints in the sands of time
Walking closer towards each other
Holding hands and sharing love
Which will not be meant for another

These are some of the memories
That come with the thoughts of you
These feelings are from my very heart
And something I hold true

15th June 2008 - Sunday@0008hrs

Sitting here remembering when
I saw the beauty rush out like a might wind
I never saw it before or bothered to notice
But now I see it and on it I am focused
The gentleness of your voice
The way you make me feel
When I see your lovely smile
They way you laugh and care for others
Even go beyond the extra mile
I am focused on that
Whether you believe me or not
My heart aches for you
And my stomach is in knots
Now I had to declare
The thoughts of my heart
In hopes that you'd hear me

14th June 2008 - Saturday@0016hrs

11th June 2008 - Wednesday@2306hrs

My soul drifts aimlessly in times of hopelessness
It searches tirelessly for meaning and truth
Yet finds no direction

My heart bleeds quietly in times of loneliness
It yearns to find warmth and happiness
Yet it somehow eludes me

My eyes seek out visions in times of want
They gaze endlessly through the blackness that envelops them
Yet they cannot see the light

My ears listen earnestly in times of silence
They search for familiar sounds to comfort and console
Yet they cannot penetrate the darkness that surrounds me

My arms reach out frantically in times of despair
They seek strength and compassion to enfold me
Yet they find nothing substantial to enwrap

My mind cries out desperately in times of solitude
It poses intense questions that demands answers
Yet there are none to be found

My hand tried reaching out earnestly in times of confusion
It tries to dial the number of a familiar and calming voice
Hoping that my lifeline to sanity remains intact

8th June 2008 - Sunday@2316hrs

8th June 2008 - Sunday@0049hrs

If I could turn and walk away
And start all over again
I can forget I ever knew you
I could live in a world of pretend

But every time I open my eyes
It's back to reality
Things I've tried to forget
Are back again with me

I could go through life
Never saying your name
I could live each day
Looking for a place to lay the blame

I could feel bitter
For the way things turned out
But I choose not to be
That's not what I'm about

I could forever long for you
And this I'll probably do
If only I could've touched your hand
At least one dream would've come true

I could say I hate you
But it would be a lie
I could wish I'd never met you
So I'd never had to say goodbye

But no matter the tears
The aches I felt inside
I still can't regret knowing you
My feelings I've never denied

I chose to remember you
The way you were with me
Things you said and felt
I hold in loving memory

Even though it was a heartache
Only waiting to begin
What I experienced with you
Was the best place I've ever been

4th June 2008 - Wednesday@2257hrs

If only I could've met you
All those years ago
If I could've loved you
With all my heart and soul

If I could've had the chance
To be the love of your life
If I could've been your only dream
And add some spice in your life

I could've been your Romeo
You would've been my Juliet
We could've written a love story
From the very moment we met

It would have been a story of love
That was genuine and pure
A love story that could melt hearts
This I know for sure

These dreams are now shattered
Our paths crossed too early, too late in life
The choices we'd make today
Would bring to much pain and strife

But I always want you to know
You'll always live in my dreams
You captured a piece of my heart
And truly made it sing

I love you still today
More than words can say
You truly touched my heart
In an unbelievable way

Now our chance of happiness is over
We know it can never be
But you'll always live in my heart
And remain close to me