Dear...
Have you had your dinner?
Have you settled down?
I just had mine...
Sorry for not posting anything much today...
A lot of things went through my mind today ever since I got the medical report...
How should I describe it? Devastated, lost, fear, scared, helpless, demoralized...
I guess by now you should know what is happening to me...
I'm lost of words for what it has turned out to be...
A mixed of feelings and emotions like a roller coaster ride...
But one thing for sure, I'm afraid to close my eyes at night no matter how tired I am...
Afraid that once I close my eyes, I will never wake up again...
Afraid that today will be the last time I'll ever see you again...
Afraid that everything will be lost forever...
But I couldn't blame it on anyone else but myself...
I've brought myself upon it...
Remember the vow I've made that if you are upset or hurt because of me, I shall be throned with punishments
I've got what I've deserved and it's the worst feeling I've ever felt in my life...
And I'm really and truly sorry for everything...
It's getting late and it's been a busy and hectic day...
I'm off to bed...
You to get some early rest ok?
Sleep tight and good night...
Monday, March 31, 2008
31st March 2008 - Monday@1936hrs
Dear...
I've reached home...
Where are you right now?
Be careful ok?
Let me know once you reach home safely...
I've reached home...
Where are you right now?
Be careful ok?
Let me know once you reach home safely...
31st March 2008 - Monday@1057hrs
Dear Dear..
I've just got back from the specialist...
I've got some bad news to tell you...
Ask you something...
Did you ever experienced back at school during meet the parents day and you found out that you had a lot of fails in your report cards...
And you know that is the end of the world for you...
Well, my case is something like that, only worst...
You are the first to know as of this postings...
Remember those times when I'm having weak heart problem and occasionally passed out at home?
The doctor said that I'm suffering from a terminal heart problem...
My heart may fail anytime due to the cells in the heart muscles has disorientated from gene mutations...
It is called Hypertrophic Cardiomyopathy or for short, HCM
My heart may stop functioning anytime...
Those who suffer from it usually dies in their 20s...
The chances of me surviving through it is very slim as there are no medication or treatment known at the moment that could stop my gene from mutations...
Every time I have relapse, it means my heart muscle are degenerating...
The doctor was kind enough to even let me know how I would die in the end to prepare me for it..
Either from a heart attack or my heart can just stop anytime quietly...
I've finally understand why the doctor asked me to bring along a loved ones along for this when he called me yesterday...
When the doctor broke the news to me, I was hoping you were there to hear it...
It felt as if time has frozen...
It was more than I could handle...
I'm basically waiting for my time to go...
But I had so much I've yet to say to you...
I've just got back from the specialist...
I've got some bad news to tell you...
Ask you something...
Did you ever experienced back at school during meet the parents day and you found out that you had a lot of fails in your report cards...
And you know that is the end of the world for you...
Well, my case is something like that, only worst...
You are the first to know as of this postings...
Remember those times when I'm having weak heart problem and occasionally passed out at home?
The doctor said that I'm suffering from a terminal heart problem...
My heart may fail anytime due to the cells in the heart muscles has disorientated from gene mutations...
It is called Hypertrophic Cardiomyopathy or for short, HCM
My heart may stop functioning anytime...
Those who suffer from it usually dies in their 20s...
The chances of me surviving through it is very slim as there are no medication or treatment known at the moment that could stop my gene from mutations...
Every time I have relapse, it means my heart muscle are degenerating...
The doctor was kind enough to even let me know how I would die in the end to prepare me for it..
Either from a heart attack or my heart can just stop anytime quietly...
I've finally understand why the doctor asked me to bring along a loved ones along for this when he called me yesterday...
When the doctor broke the news to me, I was hoping you were there to hear it...
It felt as if time has frozen...
It was more than I could handle...
I'm basically waiting for my time to go...
But I had so much I've yet to say to you...
31st March 2008 - Monday@0852hrs
Good morning Dear...
I've just reached office....
Today's traffic was quite bad so I hope you didn't caught yourself in a difficult situation...
I almost forgot that today there's the monthly meeting...
So I guess you won't be accompanying me on the medical report right?
It's ok... You attend the meeting and help me listen out if there's anything we need to know...
I'll be ok by myself...
Just hope that the result is not something serious...
I'm getting nervous about it...
My appointment is at 10am so pray for me ok?
I'll let you know once I have the results...
Remember to have something for breakfast...
Don't go on an empty stomach....
I've just reached office....
Today's traffic was quite bad so I hope you didn't caught yourself in a difficult situation...
I almost forgot that today there's the monthly meeting...
So I guess you won't be accompanying me on the medical report right?
It's ok... You attend the meeting and help me listen out if there's anything we need to know...
I'll be ok by myself...
Just hope that the result is not something serious...
I'm getting nervous about it...
My appointment is at 10am so pray for me ok?
I'll let you know once I have the results...
Remember to have something for breakfast...
Don't go on an empty stomach....
31st March 2008 - Monday@0518hrs
Good morning Dear...
Time to wake up...
It's Monday and we need to leave home earlier to avoid the jams at checkpoint...
Don't sleep already ok?
Wakey wakey...
I'll go get ready for work...
See you later...
Time to wake up...
It's Monday and we need to leave home earlier to avoid the jams at checkpoint...
Don't sleep already ok?
Wakey wakey...
I'll go get ready for work...
See you later...
Sunday, March 30, 2008
30th March 2008 - Sunday@2136hrs
Dear Dear...
Have you had your dinner?
How was it? Where did you had your dinner?
I had take aways from the nearby cooks...
Have you prepared for work tomorrow?
Did you iron your clothings?
Tomorrow morning will be the moment of truth...
I'll be collecting my test results...
The thought of it is giving me the chill, anxious, fear by the minutes...
I hope you could accompany me to what the doctor have to say about my health...
So, how was your weekend?
I hope you had enough rest because that's the most important thing for your health
Not to mentioned water as well...
I wouldn't want the same thing happened to you again sometime a year ago when you've suddenly passed out at home...
It really scares me to death...
Try not to stay up too late ok?
Get some early rest for tomorrow...
I'll be waiting for you at the same place...
Good night Dear...
Have you had your dinner?
How was it? Where did you had your dinner?
I had take aways from the nearby cooks...
Have you prepared for work tomorrow?
Did you iron your clothings?
Tomorrow morning will be the moment of truth...
I'll be collecting my test results...
The thought of it is giving me the chill, anxious, fear by the minutes...
I hope you could accompany me to what the doctor have to say about my health...
So, how was your weekend?
I hope you had enough rest because that's the most important thing for your health
Not to mentioned water as well...
I wouldn't want the same thing happened to you again sometime a year ago when you've suddenly passed out at home...
It really scares me to death...
Try not to stay up too late ok?
Get some early rest for tomorrow...
I'll be waiting for you at the same place...
Good night Dear...
30th March 2008 - Sunday@1904hrs
Dear Dear...
It's almost time for dinner...
Hope you had a good afternoon rest because the weather is very warm and probably will give you a headache...
What are you having for dinner? Eating out or Mama is cooking?
If you don't have any plans yet for dinner, want to dine out?
It's been quite a while since we've last had your favourite fried oyster...
I'll come and pick you up right now ok?
It's almost time for dinner...
Hope you had a good afternoon rest because the weather is very warm and probably will give you a headache...
What are you having for dinner? Eating out or Mama is cooking?
If you don't have any plans yet for dinner, want to dine out?
It's been quite a while since we've last had your favourite fried oyster...
I'll come and pick you up right now ok?
30th March 2008 - Sunday@1648hrs
Dear Dear...
What are you doing right now?
Are you taking your afternoon nap?
Sorry if I have woken you up...
I hope you are sleeping soundly right now...
I couldn't rest neither do anything...
I'm starting to get really concerned over the results of my checkup...
I had a call today from the doctor and he told me to meet up with him tomorrow morning on the test results...
I'll finally get some answers...
Will you be able to accompany me to pick up my results?
I really need your presences as a support just in case...
What are you doing right now?
Are you taking your afternoon nap?
Sorry if I have woken you up...
I hope you are sleeping soundly right now...
I couldn't rest neither do anything...
I'm starting to get really concerned over the results of my checkup...
I had a call today from the doctor and he told me to meet up with him tomorrow morning on the test results...
I'll finally get some answers...
Will you be able to accompany me to pick up my results?
I really need your presences as a support just in case...
30th March 2008 - Sunday@1424hrs
Dear Dear...
Have you had your lunch?
I hope you had something good for lunch...
Normally you don't have any lunch during the weekends resulting your stomach to have serious gastric...
So I hope you have something good...
I've just had mine...
So after lunch what do you want to do?
Since we have nothing on, shall we go visit the pet shop again?
I really hope we get to see a well breed Golden Retriever puppy...
The last time we saw was somewhere below average...
So I hope we do get to see a good breed this time around...
How about that?
Have you had your lunch?
I hope you had something good for lunch...
Normally you don't have any lunch during the weekends resulting your stomach to have serious gastric...
So I hope you have something good...
I've just had mine...
So after lunch what do you want to do?
Since we have nothing on, shall we go visit the pet shop again?
I really hope we get to see a well breed Golden Retriever puppy...
The last time we saw was somewhere below average...
So I hope we do get to see a good breed this time around...
How about that?
30th March 2008 - Sunday@1257hrs
Dear Dear...
It's almost lunch time...
Are you hungry?
Did you had anything for breakfast?
I hope it's not nasi lemak or wantan noodles again...
The weather is kind of warm today so I'm thinking of having something light...
What do you think?
I'll come by and pick you up in 30 minutes...
We'll discuss about it later ok?
It's almost lunch time...
Are you hungry?
Did you had anything for breakfast?
I hope it's not nasi lemak or wantan noodles again...
The weather is kind of warm today so I'm thinking of having something light...
What do you think?
I'll come by and pick you up in 30 minutes...
We'll discuss about it later ok?
30th March 2008 - Sunday@1115hrs
Dear Dear...
Did you had anything for breakfast?
Hope you has something in the morning...
Don't want you to starve your stomach...
What are you doing right now? Are you watching TV?
I'm starting to get a little more scared and nervous on the test results...
I can't help but keep getting a bad feeling about it...
The chill is going to the bones...
Feels like something is going to happen...
Something big...
Did you had anything for breakfast?
Hope you has something in the morning...
Don't want you to starve your stomach...
What are you doing right now? Are you watching TV?
I'm starting to get a little more scared and nervous on the test results...
I can't help but keep getting a bad feeling about it...
The chill is going to the bones...
Feels like something is going to happen...
Something big...
30th March 2008 - Sunday@0956hrs
Dear Dear...
I've just got home...
Just now after service, I've went to my Dad's to pay my respect...
Have you wake up?
Did you sleep well last night?
I hope you did...
Want to go out for breakfast or do you want me to pack to your place?
It's a lovely morning so I suggest we go out for breakfast...
I'll come by in 30 minutes time ok?
I've just got home...
Just now after service, I've went to my Dad's to pay my respect...
Have you wake up?
Did you sleep well last night?
I hope you did...
Want to go out for breakfast or do you want me to pack to your place?
It's a lovely morning so I suggest we go out for breakfast...
I'll come by in 30 minutes time ok?
30th March 2008 - Sunday@0701hrs
Good morning Dear...
I'm about to leave for Sunday Service...
Hope I didn't wake you up...
Sleep in a little longer...
I'll call you once I'm done ok?
I'm about to leave for Sunday Service...
Hope I didn't wake you up...
Sleep in a little longer...
I'll call you once I'm done ok?
Saturday, March 29, 2008
29th March 2008 - Saturday@2255hrs
Dear Dear...
What are you doing right now?
Have you gone to bed?
I'm not asleep yet...
I couldn't sleep...
I couldn't help but keep thinking about the test that I had recently...
The probes, the scans and all the readings...
It is starting to creep me out, wondering what is going on with me...
So what plans do you have in mind for tomorrow?
I don't have one planned but we can always start it off with a nice breakfast...
How's that?
I'll come over and pick you up after my morning service ok?
For now, let's get some rest...
It's getting late...
I'll see you tomorrow...
Good night Dear and sweet dreams...
What are you doing right now?
Have you gone to bed?
I'm not asleep yet...
I couldn't sleep...
I couldn't help but keep thinking about the test that I had recently...
The probes, the scans and all the readings...
It is starting to creep me out, wondering what is going on with me...
So what plans do you have in mind for tomorrow?
I don't have one planned but we can always start it off with a nice breakfast...
How's that?
I'll come over and pick you up after my morning service ok?
For now, let's get some rest...
It's getting late...
I'll see you tomorrow...
Good night Dear and sweet dreams...
29th March 2008 - Saturday@2030hrs
Dear Dear...
Have you had your dinner?
How was it?
Was it enough for you?
Since it is still early, do you want to go play bowling?
It seems ages since we've last bowled...
Wanna workout those upper arm muscles of yours a little?
Then after that, perhaps we can go for a drink...
Have you had your dinner?
How was it?
Was it enough for you?
Since it is still early, do you want to go play bowling?
It seems ages since we've last bowled...
Wanna workout those upper arm muscles of yours a little?
Then after that, perhaps we can go for a drink...
29th March 2008 - Saturday@1759hrs
Dear Dear...
Did you had afternoon nap?
I hope you did because the weather is nice to sleep in...
It's almost 6pm..
Have to wake up and get ready for dinner...
What would you like to have for dinner?
How about we have steamboat for dinner?
After dinner, shall we get some DVD movies to watch?
It's been quite a while since we've last bought DVD movies...
You got any movies that you would like to watch?
Shall we get something to munch for the movies as well?
Did you had afternoon nap?
I hope you did because the weather is nice to sleep in...
It's almost 6pm..
Have to wake up and get ready for dinner...
What would you like to have for dinner?
How about we have steamboat for dinner?
After dinner, shall we get some DVD movies to watch?
It's been quite a while since we've last bought DVD movies...
You got any movies that you would like to watch?
Shall we get something to munch for the movies as well?
29th March 2008 - Saturday@1501hrs
Dear Dear...
Have you had your lunch?
What did you had?
I hope it was a good one...
I had porridge for lunch...
So what are you doing right now? reading or watching Korean drama?
You know what, the area where I had my blood drawn yesterday started turning blue and it is a big patch...
It's so big that you can see from afar...
Also I'm getting a little anxious on the results of the medical report...
Having this rush to know what is going with me....
Pray for me that it is nothing serious....
If later in the afternoon you have nothing important on and don't you stare at the laptop for work, get some afternoon nap ok?
Get some rest...
You need all the rest you can get...
It's tough enough for your health waking up early during weekdays so it's better to get all the rest whenever you can...
Have you had your lunch?
What did you had?
I hope it was a good one...
I had porridge for lunch...
So what are you doing right now? reading or watching Korean drama?
You know what, the area where I had my blood drawn yesterday started turning blue and it is a big patch...
It's so big that you can see from afar...
Also I'm getting a little anxious on the results of the medical report...
Having this rush to know what is going with me....
Pray for me that it is nothing serious....
If later in the afternoon you have nothing important on and don't you stare at the laptop for work, get some afternoon nap ok?
Get some rest...
You need all the rest you can get...
It's tough enough for your health waking up early during weekdays so it's better to get all the rest whenever you can...
29th March 2008 - Saturday@1159hrs
Dear Dear...
It's almost lunch time...
Did you had anything for breakfast?
Are you hungry now?
I didn't had anything for breakfast so starting to feel a little hungry...
What are you craving for?
I'm craving for Bak Kut Teh...
Shall we have that for lunch?
It's almost lunch time...
Did you had anything for breakfast?
Are you hungry now?
I didn't had anything for breakfast so starting to feel a little hungry...
What are you craving for?
I'm craving for Bak Kut Teh...
Shall we have that for lunch?
29th March 2008 - Saturday@0816hrs
Good morning dear dear...
Are you still asleep?
My guess is you are probably still sleeping correct?
Hope you slept well and the bed doesn't give you any problem...
Is your back still hurts?
I've just woke up...
Lately I've been waking up earlier then usual even though I sleep late...
Don't know why...
Do you still want to rest or shall I come pick you up for breakfast?
You let me know ok?
Are you still asleep?
My guess is you are probably still sleeping correct?
Hope you slept well and the bed doesn't give you any problem...
Is your back still hurts?
I've just woke up...
Lately I've been waking up earlier then usual even though I sleep late...
Don't know why...
Do you still want to rest or shall I come pick you up for breakfast?
You let me know ok?
Friday, March 28, 2008
28th Macrh 2008 - Friday@2137hrs
Dear Dear...
I have just finished my dinner and doing the dishes...
Have you reached home?
Have you washed up?
Have you had your dinner?
Hope it was a nice one as a start to the a nice weekend...
Since it still early, shall we go drive around town and see the night view around?
It's kind of nice to drive around with a cooling weather tonight...
So shall we?
I have just finished my dinner and doing the dishes...
Have you reached home?
Have you washed up?
Have you had your dinner?
Hope it was a nice one as a start to the a nice weekend...
Since it still early, shall we go drive around town and see the night view around?
It's kind of nice to drive around with a cooling weather tonight...
So shall we?
28th March 2008 - Friday@2006hrs
Dear Dear...
I just got home from the checkup...
They drew another sample of my blood and had another round of scans on my heart...
They told me the report will due next week and they will call me up once it is ready....
Scary...
Are you having your dinner?
Where are you having your dinner?
I need to go have my bath and dinner now...
Later after dinner shall we go for a spin? It's the weekend...
Let me know once you reached home ok?
I just got home from the checkup...
They drew another sample of my blood and had another round of scans on my heart...
They told me the report will due next week and they will call me up once it is ready....
Scary...
Are you having your dinner?
Where are you having your dinner?
I need to go have my bath and dinner now...
Later after dinner shall we go for a spin? It's the weekend...
Let me know once you reached home ok?
28th March 2008 - Friday@1434hrs
Dear...
Later I might leave office earlier for the checkup...
Since afternoon I don't have much things on hand I need to work out immediately, I might as well go get my test done and return back to JB...
Do you have anything urgent in the afternoon that you need to settle?
If not, wanna meet up after my checkup and we make our way back home earlier?
We can avoid the jam and perhaps we can dine out together tonight...
What say you?
Later I might leave office earlier for the checkup...
Since afternoon I don't have much things on hand I need to work out immediately, I might as well go get my test done and return back to JB...
Do you have anything urgent in the afternoon that you need to settle?
If not, wanna meet up after my checkup and we make our way back home earlier?
We can avoid the jam and perhaps we can dine out together tonight...
What say you?
28th March 2008 - Friday@1137hrs
Dear...
Did you wash your bottle today before refilling it?
Hope you do...
Are you busy with your work?
I'm a little hungry right now so just wanna ask you what would like have for lunch?
Call me weird or anything you like but I'm craving for sandwich for lunch...
I know what you are thinking... It's not like the typical me who has a big appetite...
Wonder where sell nice sandwiches...
Something different for suggestions and considerations...
How about you?
Did you wash your bottle today before refilling it?
Hope you do...
Are you busy with your work?
I'm a little hungry right now so just wanna ask you what would like have for lunch?
Call me weird or anything you like but I'm craving for sandwich for lunch...
I know what you are thinking... It's not like the typical me who has a big appetite...
Wonder where sell nice sandwiches...
Something different for suggestions and considerations...
How about you?
28th March 2008 - Friday@0754hrs
Good morning Dear...
Sorry I wasn't able to wake you up just now as I've overslept...
Went to bed quite late last night...
Where are you right now?
Hope you are safe and sound...
Anyway, it's a Friday and it's the weekend....
And it definitely feels great, don't you agree?
But today after work, I need to go to the clinic to let them collect another round of my blood samples...
Then only I'll be able to go back...
I'll try to bring forward the schedule if I have nothing on during the afternoon...
That way, we can go back earlier and avoid the jams...
Call me when you are about to reach ok?
I'll meet up with you for breakfast...
Be careful...
Sorry I wasn't able to wake you up just now as I've overslept...
Went to bed quite late last night...
Where are you right now?
Hope you are safe and sound...
Anyway, it's a Friday and it's the weekend....
And it definitely feels great, don't you agree?
But today after work, I need to go to the clinic to let them collect another round of my blood samples...
Then only I'll be able to go back...
I'll try to bring forward the schedule if I have nothing on during the afternoon...
That way, we can go back earlier and avoid the jams...
Call me when you are about to reach ok?
I'll meet up with you for breakfast...
Be careful...
Thursday, March 27, 2008
27th March 2008 - Thursday@2107hrs
Dear Dear...
Had your dinner already?
How was it? What did you had?
All prepared for work tomorrow?
There's something I want to tell you...
Today late afternoon, I've received a call from the clinic and they asked me to go back tomorrow because they want to draw another blood sample from me...
I don't know why they need to do that but from the phone conversation, they seems to mentioned that my DNA is slightly different from a normal DNA and they need another blood sample to verify it....
Scary... by hearing that, it started to send chills down my spine...
Are you free tomorrow after work? Do you have anything on? Can you accompany me to the clinic? These tests that I'm having starting to worries me...
And I hate needles...
Don't know what had happened inside of me...
I hope it's nothing serious and I do hope all these didn't scared you as well...
How's work today? Tired ma?
If tired, better get some early rest ok?
Got to watch out for your health...
Tomorrow its Friday, the last working day of the week...
Finally after working so hard, it's the time again to give ourselves a nice break from it and just relax...
I have the car by myself for the whole weekend starting from tomorrow...
Wanna go for a late night spin? Then after that shall we go and have supper?
Or if you have better suggestions, I'm opened for it...
I really want to bring you to the water tower at Taman Daya...
The night view of the city from there is amazing....
From there it felt like time have stopped and the whole world is at your feet...
A nice chill out place... minus the mosquito...
Shall we go there tomorrow night?
It's getting late...
Let's get some rest shall we?
I'll see you tomorrow same time, same place...
Good night, rest well, sleep tight and sweet dreams...
Had your dinner already?
How was it? What did you had?
All prepared for work tomorrow?
There's something I want to tell you...
Today late afternoon, I've received a call from the clinic and they asked me to go back tomorrow because they want to draw another blood sample from me...
I don't know why they need to do that but from the phone conversation, they seems to mentioned that my DNA is slightly different from a normal DNA and they need another blood sample to verify it....
Scary... by hearing that, it started to send chills down my spine...
Are you free tomorrow after work? Do you have anything on? Can you accompany me to the clinic? These tests that I'm having starting to worries me...
And I hate needles...
Don't know what had happened inside of me...
I hope it's nothing serious and I do hope all these didn't scared you as well...
How's work today? Tired ma?
If tired, better get some early rest ok?
Got to watch out for your health...
Tomorrow its Friday, the last working day of the week...
Finally after working so hard, it's the time again to give ourselves a nice break from it and just relax...
I have the car by myself for the whole weekend starting from tomorrow...
Wanna go for a late night spin? Then after that shall we go and have supper?
Or if you have better suggestions, I'm opened for it...
I really want to bring you to the water tower at Taman Daya...
The night view of the city from there is amazing....
From there it felt like time have stopped and the whole world is at your feet...
A nice chill out place... minus the mosquito...
Shall we go there tomorrow night?
It's getting late...
Let's get some rest shall we?
I'll see you tomorrow same time, same place...
Good night, rest well, sleep tight and sweet dreams...
27th March 2008 - Thursday@1911hrs
Dear Dear...
I've just reached home le...
Where are you right now?
Be careful ok?
Where are going to have your dinner?
I got something I need to tell you...
We'll talk later once we've settled down after dinner....
Call me once you reach home, let me know you are safe ok...
I've just reached home le...
Where are you right now?
Be careful ok?
Where are going to have your dinner?
I got something I need to tell you...
We'll talk later once we've settled down after dinner....
Call me once you reach home, let me know you are safe ok...
27th March 2008 - Thursday@1652hrs
Dear...
What are you doing right now?
Don't tired yourself out because of work ok?
Must rest a while...
Your body can't withstand long hours of strains...
Wanna go for a break?
Or we skip break and we leave office earlier later?
Then we can have more rest time at home...
What are you doing right now?
Don't tired yourself out because of work ok?
Must rest a while...
Your body can't withstand long hours of strains...
Wanna go for a break?
Or we skip break and we leave office earlier later?
Then we can have more rest time at home...
27th March 2008 - Thursday@1350hrs
Dear...
The weekend is almost here
What do you intend to do or do you have anything in mind?
How about going for a jog at the Sultan's Garden that I've mentioned a few days ago?
Come to think of it, It's been quite a while since we last went grocery shopping at the supermarket near your place....
Shall we go stock up our supplies this weekend?
You asking me what I wanna do for the weekend?
For me, anything goes....
As long as I get to spend my time with you...
The rest doesn't really matters....
The weekend is almost here
What do you intend to do or do you have anything in mind?
How about going for a jog at the Sultan's Garden that I've mentioned a few days ago?
Come to think of it, It's been quite a while since we last went grocery shopping at the supermarket near your place....
Shall we go stock up our supplies this weekend?
You asking me what I wanna do for the weekend?
For me, anything goes....
As long as I get to spend my time with you...
The rest doesn't really matters....
27th March 2008 - Thursday@1057hrs
Dear...
What are you doing right now?
Are you busy with your work?
I'm still alright with mine, just that a lot of emails need to reply and a few special request from customers need to help out...
I saw that you didn't wash your bottle and just refill it with fresh water...
You know I told you before that is not the hygienic way...
It's bad for your health...
Next time must wash your bottle before refilling it ok?
Must drink plenty of water as well...
Anyway, what are you craving for lunch later on?
Shall we go Ah Meng?
We leave at 12pm ok so that we can avoid the crowd...
What are you doing right now?
Are you busy with your work?
I'm still alright with mine, just that a lot of emails need to reply and a few special request from customers need to help out...
I saw that you didn't wash your bottle and just refill it with fresh water...
You know I told you before that is not the hygienic way...
It's bad for your health...
Next time must wash your bottle before refilling it ok?
Must drink plenty of water as well...
Anyway, what are you craving for lunch later on?
Shall we go Ah Meng?
We leave at 12pm ok so that we can avoid the crowd...
27th March 2008 - Thursday@0812hrs
Dear...
I've reached office le...
Where are you right now?
How are coming to Singapore?
Richard sending you to the train station or Papa dropped you at custom?
The traffic at custom today seems to be smooth sailing but still be careful of yourself ok?
Don't get hurt or anything....
I'll be waiting for you for breakfast...
What will you like to have?
It's been awhile since we last had Mac for breakfast so shall we give ourselves a nice treat as a start to a lovely Thursday morning...?
Let me know when you have reached ok? I'll meet up with you...
I've reached office le...
Where are you right now?
How are coming to Singapore?
Richard sending you to the train station or Papa dropped you at custom?
The traffic at custom today seems to be smooth sailing but still be careful of yourself ok?
Don't get hurt or anything....
I'll be waiting for you for breakfast...
What will you like to have?
It's been awhile since we last had Mac for breakfast so shall we give ourselves a nice treat as a start to a lovely Thursday morning...?
Let me know when you have reached ok? I'll meet up with you...
27th March 2008 - Thursday@0514hrs
Good morning dear...
Time to wake up le....
It's a Thursday....
1 more day to go to the weekend....
Feels great doesn't it?
I know it's dreadful to wake up this early but that's our fate working is Singapore...
So don't sleep already ok? Just another 5 minutes...
I'll go and get ready for work...
See you later....
Time to wake up le....
It's a Thursday....
1 more day to go to the weekend....
Feels great doesn't it?
I know it's dreadful to wake up this early but that's our fate working is Singapore...
So don't sleep already ok? Just another 5 minutes...
I'll go and get ready for work...
See you later....
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
26th March 2008 - Wednesday@2311hrs
Dear Dear....
Have you fallen asleep?
At think at this time, you've must have gone to lalaland...
Hope you have prepared everything for work tomorrow...
I have not sleep yet...
I couldn't sleep...
Somehow, I keep thinking about the checkup that I had this morning...
I can't help but to feel there's a bad hunch about it...
I know what you wanna say...
I'm over paranoid, think to much...
But hey, that's me....
What do you think had happened to me? Your hunch are always on the spot...
I believe you...
So maybe you could tell me something, at least let me mentally prepared for it...
Anyway, I'll try to get some rest...
We'll leave it until the report is out...
Pray hard is nothing serious....
Good night and sweet dreams...
Have you fallen asleep?
At think at this time, you've must have gone to lalaland...
Hope you have prepared everything for work tomorrow...
I have not sleep yet...
I couldn't sleep...
Somehow, I keep thinking about the checkup that I had this morning...
I can't help but to feel there's a bad hunch about it...
I know what you wanna say...
I'm over paranoid, think to much...
But hey, that's me....
What do you think had happened to me? Your hunch are always on the spot...
I believe you...
So maybe you could tell me something, at least let me mentally prepared for it...
Anyway, I'll try to get some rest...
We'll leave it until the report is out...
Pray hard is nothing serious....
Good night and sweet dreams...
26th March 2008 - Wednesday@1931hrs
Dear Dear...
Are you still making your way back?
Be careful...
How's the traffic like?
Can you give me a call once you reach home? Let me know you are safe ok?
I've just reached home and about to wash up and have my dinner...
Be waiting for your call....
Are you still making your way back?
Be careful...
How's the traffic like?
Can you give me a call once you reach home? Let me know you are safe ok?
I've just reached home and about to wash up and have my dinner...
Be waiting for your call....
26th March 2008 - Wednesday@1634hrs
Dear...
How's your work so far?
Hope that it has been smooth sailing since morning...
Wanna go for a break and catch some air?
What time shall we leave office later?
I'm getting some snacks for our journey home, what would you like to have? any drinks?
Hope we won't get caught in the insane jam at checkpoint later...
If not, your poor stomach will have to suffer from hunger again...
How's your work so far?
Hope that it has been smooth sailing since morning...
Wanna go for a break and catch some air?
What time shall we leave office later?
I'm getting some snacks for our journey home, what would you like to have? any drinks?
Hope we won't get caught in the insane jam at checkpoint later...
If not, your poor stomach will have to suffer from hunger again...
26th March 2008 - Wednesday@1354hrs
Dear...
I was wondering what can we do this weekend?
Shall we go for a jog at the Sultan's Garden this coming Saturday morning?
I have the car for the whole weekend and I feel kind of heavy..
Need to work out some sweat off my body...
Then after that shall we go and have a nice breakfast?
How's that for a start to a nice weekend?
Be looking forward to it...
I was wondering what can we do this weekend?
Shall we go for a jog at the Sultan's Garden this coming Saturday morning?
I have the car for the whole weekend and I feel kind of heavy..
Need to work out some sweat off my body...
Then after that shall we go and have a nice breakfast?
How's that for a start to a nice weekend?
Be looking forward to it...
26th March 2008 - Wednesday@1207hrs
Dear...
It's 12pm le...
Are you still busy with your work?
Do you want to have lunch now?
I'm a bit hungry already as I fast for the checkup. I didn't had anything for breakfast...
Shall we go?
We leave in 5 minutes time ok...
It's 12pm le...
Are you still busy with your work?
Do you want to have lunch now?
I'm a bit hungry already as I fast for the checkup. I didn't had anything for breakfast...
Shall we go?
We leave in 5 minutes time ok...
26th March 2008 - Wednesday@1011hrs
Dear...
Have you filled up our water bottle? Did you wash it before you refill it?
I just got back from my checkup and it is by far the scariest and the most sophisticated checkup I've ever done...
They've put a lot of probe all over my body to take measurements of all the various pulse...
They've also put a tube in my mouth to take my breathe readings...
They even asked me to move around and stay stationary with all the things in my mouth and all over my body so that they could take the difference of readings when I'm active and inactive...
I've also took X-Ray, Echo and ECG test on my heart...
And the usual stuff, blood test, weight and height measurements etc....
The doctor say the report will due in 1 week time.
Scary. I was hoping you could be there to witness it and give me moral support....
For now, let's just hope for the best....
Have you filled up our water bottle? Did you wash it before you refill it?
I just got back from my checkup and it is by far the scariest and the most sophisticated checkup I've ever done...
They've put a lot of probe all over my body to take measurements of all the various pulse...
They've also put a tube in my mouth to take my breathe readings...
They even asked me to move around and stay stationary with all the things in my mouth and all over my body so that they could take the difference of readings when I'm active and inactive...
I've also took X-Ray, Echo and ECG test on my heart...
And the usual stuff, blood test, weight and height measurements etc....
The doctor say the report will due in 1 week time.
Scary. I was hoping you could be there to witness it and give me moral support....
For now, let's just hope for the best....
26th March 2008 - Wednesday@0516hrs
Dear Dear....
Ohaiyo....
Wakey wakey....
Almost time to wake up le...
I'll wash up and and get ready for work...
You don't sleep already ok?
Wake up dear....
See you later...
Ohaiyo....
Wakey wakey....
Almost time to wake up le...
I'll wash up and and get ready for work...
You don't sleep already ok?
Wake up dear....
See you later...
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
25th March 2008 - Tuesday@2103hrs
Dear Dear...
Have you had your dinner already?
I just had mine and also just finish doing the dishes...
Have you prepared your clothings for tomorrow?
By the way, just a reminder that I'll be going for my heart screening tomorrow so after breakfast I'll be going for checkup.
My appointment is 8.30am
Frankly speaking, I'm really scared right now.
I'm having butterflies in my stomach just thinking about it.
I don't know what will happen tomorrow or what has happened to me
Will you be able to accompany me to the checkup as a moral support?
If you have work to accomplish then it's ok, work is more important....
I'll let you know tomorrow once I'm done with it...
So fast, it's already 9pm and the day is going to end just like that
We hardly achieve anything for ourselves during weekdays...
I hope you don't mad at me ok? I'm in the midst of transition of account reshuffling so it will take awhile for me to adapt and get used to the new accounts....
How about you? Have you started your new account transition?
Hope your new account is a good one to manage.
Don't want it to be like the previous YCH, so pushy and demanding...
Work like slaves just to make them happy...
I'm sure Mervyn will be able to provide you with all the support and assistance that you need on the tasks and challenges ahead...
Anyway, take it step by step, take your time, no need to rush into it...
Most important don't give yourself too much pressure...
I know you'll get very indulge in your work once the ball starts to roll...
Not good for your health...
Tomorrow will be another busy and hectic day so try to get some early rest ok?
Don't stay up to late...
Good night and rest well...
I'll see you tomorrow at the same place...
Have you had your dinner already?
I just had mine and also just finish doing the dishes...
Have you prepared your clothings for tomorrow?
By the way, just a reminder that I'll be going for my heart screening tomorrow so after breakfast I'll be going for checkup.
My appointment is 8.30am
Frankly speaking, I'm really scared right now.
I'm having butterflies in my stomach just thinking about it.
I don't know what will happen tomorrow or what has happened to me
Will you be able to accompany me to the checkup as a moral support?
If you have work to accomplish then it's ok, work is more important....
I'll let you know tomorrow once I'm done with it...
So fast, it's already 9pm and the day is going to end just like that
We hardly achieve anything for ourselves during weekdays...
I hope you don't mad at me ok? I'm in the midst of transition of account reshuffling so it will take awhile for me to adapt and get used to the new accounts....
How about you? Have you started your new account transition?
Hope your new account is a good one to manage.
Don't want it to be like the previous YCH, so pushy and demanding...
Work like slaves just to make them happy...
I'm sure Mervyn will be able to provide you with all the support and assistance that you need on the tasks and challenges ahead...
Anyway, take it step by step, take your time, no need to rush into it...
Most important don't give yourself too much pressure...
I know you'll get very indulge in your work once the ball starts to roll...
Not good for your health...
Tomorrow will be another busy and hectic day so try to get some early rest ok?
Don't stay up to late...
Good night and rest well...
I'll see you tomorrow at the same place...
25th March 2008 - Tuesday@1923hrs
Dear Dear...
I have reached home le...
Where are you right now?
Are you still on your way back?
Be careful ok...
Where are you going to have your dinner later? Eating out, at Grandma place or Mama cooked dinner?
Let me know when you reach home ok?
I'll go have my bath and dinner...
Talk to you later...
I have reached home le...
Where are you right now?
Are you still on your way back?
Be careful ok...
Where are you going to have your dinner later? Eating out, at Grandma place or Mama cooked dinner?
Let me know when you reach home ok?
I'll go have my bath and dinner...
Talk to you later...
25th March 2008 - Tuesday@1635hrs
Dear...
Are you free now?
Wanna go for a break?
Need to catch some air from all the work...
We leave at 5 minutes ok?
Are you free now?
Wanna go for a break?
Need to catch some air from all the work...
We leave at 5 minutes ok?
25th March 2008 - Tuesday@1457hrs
Just sitting here and thinking,
Thinking my thoughts of you
Dreaming of how things would be
If you were right here too.
I hope that things are going
The way that you had planed
I only wish that you were here
And I could hold your hand
I dream of being with you
Of being by your side
Of waking up beside you
of love that we won't hide
I hope one day that you'll be more
Than just a dream at night
That I can bring you happiness
And love with all my might
But until then, I'm here thinking
There's nothing else to do
Than dream of you and count the days
Until I'm there with you
Dear... I miss you...
25th March 2008 - Tuesday@1252hrs
Dear...
Time for lunch le...
What shall we have today?
You know it's been a long time since we've last played pool together
So shall we go Cineleisure and play a few rounds after lunch?
Can kill some time because time seems to past so slow today....
ok?
Time for lunch le...
What shall we have today?
You know it's been a long time since we've last played pool together
So shall we go Cineleisure and play a few rounds after lunch?
Can kill some time because time seems to past so slow today....
ok?
25th March 2008 - Tuesday@1042hrs
Dear...
What are you doing right now?
Are you busy with your work?
Though work must be done but don't forget to drink water ok?
What did you had for breakfast?
Have you recovered from your cough yet?
I don't hear you coughing that often so I assume you are all recovered?
What are you doing right now?
Are you busy with your work?
Though work must be done but don't forget to drink water ok?
What did you had for breakfast?
Have you recovered from your cough yet?
I don't hear you coughing that often so I assume you are all recovered?
So close yet so far.... I've got so much to tell you...
Dear, can you hear me telling you how sorry I am..
Can you hear me telling you how much I miss you...
Can you hear me telling you how much I love you...
Dear, can you hear me telling you how sorry I am..
Can you hear me telling you how much I miss you...
Can you hear me telling you how much I love you...
25th March 2008 - Tuesday@0517hrs
Good morning dear...
Time to wake up le...
I know you might be scolding me a sleepy pig but I really feel tired and lazy to get out of bed...
Anyway, I'll get up and wash up in 5 minutes time ok?
You too have to get up soon ok...
We'll meet at the same place
See you later...
Time to wake up le...
I know you might be scolding me a sleepy pig but I really feel tired and lazy to get out of bed...
Anyway, I'll get up and wash up in 5 minutes time ok?
You too have to get up soon ok...
We'll meet at the same place
See you later...
Monday, March 24, 2008
24th March 2008 - Monday@2146hrs
Dear Dear...
Have you settle down yet?
All packed for tomorrow?
How about your clothings?
Today has been a busy day for me.
Reports, paperwork, follow up and the usual stuff, chasing people for stuff
Well, I hope you are not in the same situation as me because it is a typical recipe for a blue Monday... to be piled with a whole stack of work.
So what are you doing right now?
How's your skin condition coming?
Hope the newly bought lotion did some wonders...
In awhile more, it's bed time so don't stay up to late ok?
I really wish I could talk to you right now be it on the phone or MSN
I can't help but keep thinking about you the whole day...
Can we have another chance? I really want to make things right for us...
Have you settle down yet?
All packed for tomorrow?
How about your clothings?
Today has been a busy day for me.
Reports, paperwork, follow up and the usual stuff, chasing people for stuff
Well, I hope you are not in the same situation as me because it is a typical recipe for a blue Monday... to be piled with a whole stack of work.
So what are you doing right now?
How's your skin condition coming?
Hope the newly bought lotion did some wonders...
In awhile more, it's bed time so don't stay up to late ok?
I really wish I could talk to you right now be it on the phone or MSN
I can't help but keep thinking about you the whole day...
Can we have another chance? I really want to make things right for us...
24th March 2008 - Monday@2039hrs
Dear...
I've reached home....
Have you had your dinner?
What did you ate?
How's work today?
Today's traffic wasn't that bad coming back to JB
In addition, I got a free ride from Azrah from office to Marsiling station...
I'll go have my bath and dinner first
Chat with you later on MSN ok?
I've reached home....
Have you had your dinner?
What did you ate?
How's work today?
Today's traffic wasn't that bad coming back to JB
In addition, I got a free ride from Azrah from office to Marsiling station...
I'll go have my bath and dinner first
Chat with you later on MSN ok?
24th March 2008 - Monday@1529hrs
Dear...
What did you have for lunch?
I had noodles for lunch...
Where did you went after lunch?
You've got appointments is it?
After your appointment will you be coming back to office?
I suggest if there's no need for you to be in office in the afternoon, try to go home early to avoid the peak hour jam...
How about I meet you somewhere and we'll go home together?
Since I have nothing urgent on hands...
By the way, you got any food or drinks you want?
You know you got low blood pressure and you can't be too hungry.
If not, you will collapse...
I'm getting some for our way home in case there's jam later on
That way we'll have something to hold the hunger...
What did you have for lunch?
I had noodles for lunch...
Where did you went after lunch?
You've got appointments is it?
After your appointment will you be coming back to office?
I suggest if there's no need for you to be in office in the afternoon, try to go home early to avoid the peak hour jam...
How about I meet you somewhere and we'll go home together?
Since I have nothing urgent on hands...
By the way, you got any food or drinks you want?
You know you got low blood pressure and you can't be too hungry.
If not, you will collapse...
I'm getting some for our way home in case there's jam later on
That way we'll have something to hold the hunger...
24th March 2008 - Monday@1228hrs
Dear Dear...
Did you fill up your water bottle?
Must drink plenty of water ok?
It's lunch time le...
Are you hungry yet?
What are you craving for today?
I know... it's the toughest question we need to answer on a daily basis...
Outside seems like its going to rain soon so if we were to go out for lunch, we better leave now...
I have umbrellas with me, we share ok?
Did you fill up your water bottle?
Must drink plenty of water ok?
It's lunch time le...
Are you hungry yet?
What are you craving for today?
I know... it's the toughest question we need to answer on a daily basis...
Outside seems like its going to rain soon so if we were to go out for lunch, we better leave now...
I have umbrellas with me, we share ok?
24th March 2008 - Monday@1122hrs
Dear....
I know you are disappointed at me...
I know I'm not caring enough for you...
Not sensitive towards your feelings...
I told you before I'll do whatever it takes to change right?
Well, I've engaged a personal consultant to help me on my emotions and personalities.
So that I can be more in control of my emotions and situations.
Ultimately, I want you to be happy and when you are happy, I'm happy
So I hope you'll be able to give me another chance to prove to you that I'm serious about you...
ok?
I know you are disappointed at me...
I know I'm not caring enough for you...
Not sensitive towards your feelings...
I told you before I'll do whatever it takes to change right?
Well, I've engaged a personal consultant to help me on my emotions and personalities.
So that I can be more in control of my emotions and situations.
Ultimately, I want you to be happy and when you are happy, I'm happy
So I hope you'll be able to give me another chance to prove to you that I'm serious about you...
ok?
24th March 2008 - Monday@0912hrs
Dear...
I've just reached office le...
You won't believe what happened at custom earlier on...
I was almost being pick-pocketed by two guys...
Luckily I've noticed them and gave them a treat to my elbow...
After that, some of the bystanders give them a good one as well...
But I was caught in the midst of the fight and some stranger was also trying to get a piece at them had cut my nose instead...
Today's traffic was quite bad so hope you make your way here safe and sound...
I've just reached office le...
You won't believe what happened at custom earlier on...
I was almost being pick-pocketed by two guys...
Luckily I've noticed them and gave them a treat to my elbow...
After that, some of the bystanders give them a good one as well...
But I was caught in the midst of the fight and some stranger was also trying to get a piece at them had cut my nose instead...
Today's traffic was quite bad so hope you make your way here safe and sound...
24th March 2008 - Monday@0515hrs
Good morning dear....
Time to wake up le...
Today is Monday and the traffic will be bad at custom
So it's better that we leave earlier to avoid congestions.
I'm going to wash up and get ready so don't you go back to bed le ok?
I'll wait for you at the usual place later...
Wakey wakey...
Time to wake up le...
Today is Monday and the traffic will be bad at custom
So it's better that we leave earlier to avoid congestions.
I'm going to wash up and get ready so don't you go back to bed le ok?
I'll wait for you at the usual place later...
Wakey wakey...
Sunday, March 23, 2008
23rd March 2008 - Sunday@2203hrs
Dear...
It's 10pm le, are you going to sleep soon?
Don't stay up to late ok?
Tomorrow is Monday. Definitely will have lots of things to run though in the office
So you will need all the rest you can get
I'll meet up with you at the same place tomorrow?
Good night dear... Sleep tight and sweet dreams...
It's 10pm le, are you going to sleep soon?
Don't stay up to late ok?
Tomorrow is Monday. Definitely will have lots of things to run though in the office
So you will need all the rest you can get
I'll meet up with you at the same place tomorrow?
Good night dear... Sleep tight and sweet dreams...
Good night dear! The long day died
In sunset's afterglow;
The faint, far candles of the sky
Were lighted long ago.
How brave they shine on me and mine
From out that field of blue!
And one afar, points where you are,
And watches over you.
Good night dear! Across the dark
I send my thoughts to you,
And may your sleep be sweet and deep
And all your dreams come true.
And may there be one dream of me,
To keep my memory bright,
Lest you forget I love you yet,
And so dear, good-night!
I love you...
In sunset's afterglow;
The faint, far candles of the sky
Were lighted long ago.
How brave they shine on me and mine
From out that field of blue!
And one afar, points where you are,
And watches over you.
Good night dear! Across the dark
I send my thoughts to you,
And may your sleep be sweet and deep
And all your dreams come true.
And may there be one dream of me,
To keep my memory bright,
Lest you forget I love you yet,
And so dear, good-night!
I love you...
23rd March 2008 - Sunday@2028hrs
Dear Dear...
Have you taken your dinner already?
I just had mine. I ate noodle soup for dinner
What did you have for dinner?
Tomorrow is back to office
Are you preparing your clothings for tomorrow?
You got anything clothes you want me to help you iron?
How's your mattress?
Does it still give you any sleeping problem when you sleep at night?
By the way, Dear... I got something important to tell you...
As you know previously my heart was weak and sometimes pinches of pain can be felt out of the blue but not quite frequent
Well, lately the pain has relapsed and I have arranged a heart screening this coming Wednesday morning...
Frankly speaking, I'm really scared what have or might happened to me...
Have you taken your dinner already?
I just had mine. I ate noodle soup for dinner
What did you have for dinner?
Tomorrow is back to office
Are you preparing your clothings for tomorrow?
You got anything clothes you want me to help you iron?
How's your mattress?
Does it still give you any sleeping problem when you sleep at night?
By the way, Dear... I got something important to tell you...
As you know previously my heart was weak and sometimes pinches of pain can be felt out of the blue but not quite frequent
Well, lately the pain has relapsed and I have arranged a heart screening this coming Wednesday morning...
Frankly speaking, I'm really scared what have or might happened to me...
23rd March 2008 - Sunday@1730hrs
Dear...
I was doing a little cleaning on my study table and guess what I've found?
A passport size picture of you which you've took last year
Remember the one that you took from those instant photo booth and you've told me that something doesn't feel right about it?
Well. I still think you look pretty in the picture...
You are always pretty...
And will always be...
I was doing a little cleaning on my study table and guess what I've found?
A passport size picture of you which you've took last year
Remember the one that you took from those instant photo booth and you've told me that something doesn't feel right about it?
Well. I still think you look pretty in the picture...
You are always pretty...
And will always be...
23rd March 2008 - Sunday@1229hrs
Dear...
What are you doing right now?
What are you having for lunch?
Today is Grandma's birthday and we are going to her place for buffet lunch...
I'll come and pick you up in awhile ok?
I'll reach in 30 minutes...
By the way, has your mobile credit expired already?
What are you doing right now?
What are you having for lunch?
Today is Grandma's birthday and we are going to her place for buffet lunch...
I'll come and pick you up in awhile ok?
I'll reach in 30 minutes...
By the way, has your mobile credit expired already?
23rd March 2008 - Sunday@0711hrs
Good morning dear...
I'm going to church for weekend service...
Don't wake up so early yet....
Just stay in bed just a little longer...
I'll call you when my service has ended ok?
I'll bring you to somewhere nice for breakfast later...
I'm going to church for weekend service...
Don't wake up so early yet....
Just stay in bed just a little longer...
I'll call you when my service has ended ok?
I'll bring you to somewhere nice for breakfast later...
Saturday, March 22, 2008
22nd March 2008 - Saturday@2300hrs
Dear Dear...
I was at your place not to long ago...
Your room light was still on...
I was behind your home where I can see your room...
What are you doing right now?
What did you have for dinner?
Tonight's weather quite cooling to go for a spin...
Shall we go drive around? It's a Saturday...
Are you still having your cough?
Will you be sleeping soon?
Can I tuck you into bed like I used to...?
Can I kiss you on your forehead like I used to...?
Can I watch over you until you fall asleep like I used to...?
Can I wish you good night and telling you I love you like I used to...?
I had instant noodle for dinner
And while having it...
I kept thinking the first time you've cooked instant noodle for me...
Although it was a simple bowl of noodle, yet it was filled with your warmth and care
Because you were the only one that ever cooked for me...
Will I ever have the chance to prepare meals with you again?
I was at your place not to long ago...
Your room light was still on...
I was behind your home where I can see your room...
What are you doing right now?
What did you have for dinner?
Tonight's weather quite cooling to go for a spin...
Shall we go drive around? It's a Saturday...
Are you still having your cough?
Will you be sleeping soon?
Can I tuck you into bed like I used to...?
Can I kiss you on your forehead like I used to...?
Can I watch over you until you fall asleep like I used to...?
Can I wish you good night and telling you I love you like I used to...?
I had instant noodle for dinner
And while having it...
I kept thinking the first time you've cooked instant noodle for me...
Although it was a simple bowl of noodle, yet it was filled with your warmth and care
Because you were the only one that ever cooked for me...
Will I ever have the chance to prepare meals with you again?
It is a cold night
I curled up in bed
and drifted to sleep
It was a quiet night
the silence was calming
I listened keenly
hoping to hear you breath
I couldn't
so I reached out my hand
to feel you
I couldn't
and I woke up from sleep...
I was alone, cold, at night
It is a cold night
My heart was freezing
My eyes clouded
Afraid to be alone
I closed my eyes
Scared to see the darkness
To feel the silence
The emptiness of my soul
It is a cold night...
Good night dear... I miss you
I curled up in bed
and drifted to sleep
It was a quiet night
the silence was calming
I listened keenly
hoping to hear you breath
I couldn't
so I reached out my hand
to feel you
I couldn't
and I woke up from sleep...
I was alone, cold, at night
It is a cold night
My heart was freezing
My eyes clouded
Afraid to be alone
I closed my eyes
Scared to see the darkness
To feel the silence
The emptiness of my soul
It is a cold night...
Good night dear... I miss you
22nd March 2008 - Saturday@1515hrs
Dear Dear...
Had your lunch already?
It's raining outside...
Are you resting at home right now?
Anyone at home?
Usually during weekdays you'll feel lethargic so try to rest whenever you can ok?
And Don't forget to drink water too...
Put some in your room in case you are lazy to walk downstairs...
Must keep your body hydrated at all time...
... but I hope could be the one fetching water for you to drink as I watch you rest like I used to...
Had your lunch already?
It's raining outside...
Are you resting at home right now?
Anyone at home?
Usually during weekdays you'll feel lethargic so try to rest whenever you can ok?
And Don't forget to drink water too...
Put some in your room in case you are lazy to walk downstairs...
Must keep your body hydrated at all time...
... but I hope could be the one fetching water for you to drink as I watch you rest like I used to...
22nd March 2008 - Saturday@1207
Dear Dear...
It's almost lunch time le...
Do you have anything to eat?
I'll come over and pick you up for lunch ok?
Shall we have Johor Jaya's Bitter Gourd Soup? or do you want to have Ampang's Yong Tou Fu for lunch?
There's a place that I've came to know recently and it serves nice desserts. Shall we go there after lunch?
I bet you'll love the place...
I'm sorry that I've cried...
I'm sorry for not being good enough to you...
I'm sorry you have to endure and tolerate me...
I'm sorry for everything that had happened...
I'm sorry because sorry was never enough...
It's almost lunch time le...
Do you have anything to eat?
I'll come over and pick you up for lunch ok?
Shall we have Johor Jaya's Bitter Gourd Soup? or do you want to have Ampang's Yong Tou Fu for lunch?
There's a place that I've came to know recently and it serves nice desserts. Shall we go there after lunch?
I bet you'll love the place...
I'm sorry that I've cried...
I'm sorry for not being good enough to you...
I'm sorry you have to endure and tolerate me...
I'm sorry for everything that had happened...
I'm sorry because sorry was never enough...
22nd March 2008 - Saturday@0742hrs
Good morning dear...
I think you might be still asleep soundly right now...
Today I'll be going to pay my respect to Ah Gong and Ah Ma...
What is your plan for today?
Sorry I can't make it for breakfast with you...
I'll will probably be back by lunch time...
If it's not to late for you, we'll have lunch together later ok?
...Did you hear it?
I think you might be still asleep soundly right now...
Today I'll be going to pay my respect to Ah Gong and Ah Ma...
What is your plan for today?
Sorry I can't make it for breakfast with you...
I'll will probably be back by lunch time...
If it's not to late for you, we'll have lunch together later ok?
Last night I was at the beach where we used to had a very special moment together, watching the sun rise from the break of dawn, wishing I could turn back the hands of time, to hold your hands again, telling you how sorry I am and how much I loved you.
...Did you hear it?
Friday, March 21, 2008
21st March 2008 - Friday@2055hrs
Dear Dear...
Have you taken your dinner yet?
How was your day been?
Have you renewed your passport?
The night is still young, shall we go for a walk at Jusco or we go yam cha at our favourite mamak stall?
I'll come and pick you up in awhile ok?
Have you taken your dinner yet?
How was your day been?
Have you renewed your passport?
The night is still young, shall we go for a walk at Jusco or we go yam cha at our favourite mamak stall?
I'll come and pick you up in awhile ok?
It's been a week since we've last talked. How have you've been? For the past one week, it's been the toughest time of my life.
Every day and night...
Each time I think about you, our times together...
The nights without hearing your voice, without knowing or being there for your well being...
The weekends without each others company..
Unable to be protect you...
Unable to comfort you...
Unable to be a good partner, a caring companion, an understanding soul mates...
Unable to be what you've hoped for...
It really hurts beyond words can describe
Sadness... sorrows... regrets... remorse... pains... agony and eventually tears had been my new friends waking up to the days and accompanied me to sleep at nights.
I really would want to change for the good and to start afresh with you.
Can we have another chance for each other?
I've missed the times when you sing this song to me... how I wish I could hear it now... how I wish I could just hug you right now... and never let go...
Every day and night...
Each time I think about you, our times together...
The nights without hearing your voice, without knowing or being there for your well being...
The weekends without each others company..
Unable to be protect you...
Unable to comfort you...
Unable to be a good partner, a caring companion, an understanding soul mates...
Unable to be what you've hoped for...
It really hurts beyond words can describe
Sadness... sorrows... regrets... remorse... pains... agony and eventually tears had been my new friends waking up to the days and accompanied me to sleep at nights.
I really would want to change for the good and to start afresh with you.
Can we have another chance for each other?
I've missed the times when you sing this song to me... how I wish I could hear it now... how I wish I could just hug you right now... and never let go...
21st March 2008 - Friday@1336hrs
Dear....
It's lunch time le...
Are you having you lunch right now?
What are you having?
I'm fasting today because it's Good Friday...
After your lunch, how are you going to spend the rest of your day?
Hope your work doesn't get in the way because it's a holiday today...
You should be taking a break and relax a little ok?
How about we get some of your favorite keropok and watch DVD together?
原谅我,好吗? =(
It's lunch time le...
Are you having you lunch right now?
What are you having?
I'm fasting today because it's Good Friday...
After your lunch, how are you going to spend the rest of your day?
Hope your work doesn't get in the way because it's a holiday today...
You should be taking a break and relax a little ok?
How about we get some of your favorite keropok and watch DVD together?
I'm alone at home and all I could do is think about you. If only you knew how regretful and remorseful I am. I couldn't think of anything else but to tell you how much I treasure you. There's no one else but myself to blame for...
我在为您哭泣...
只希望我能够再好好的爱您多一会...
您能给我多一次机会吗?
因为我爱的依然還是您...I know you've always wanted me to learn chinese. Last night I've stayed up just to learn a few and piece up this message, a message from the bottom of my heart, just for you...
我在为您哭泣...
只希望我能够再好好的爱您多一会...
您能给我多一次机会吗?
原谅我,好吗? =(
21st March 2008 - Friday@0813hrs
Good morning dear...
I've woke up le...
I guess you must be still asleep ba...
Or you might have went to the immigration to renew your passport...
It's the weekend le...
What plans do you have in mind?
If you have nothing later on, we have lunch together ok?
We'll go look for something nice to eat...
I've woke up le...
I guess you must be still asleep ba...
Or you might have went to the immigration to renew your passport...
It's the weekend le...
What plans do you have in mind?
If you have nothing later on, we have lunch together ok?
We'll go look for something nice to eat...
We've done so much together and It felt that we've known each other for so long. We had the perfect harmony back then.
You have all and every right to be disappointed at me now because I've been a great big jerk for what has happened, what I've caused you. I shouldn't be asking for your forgiveness.
Still I hope I could be the one keeping you company through the weekends... can I?
You have all and every right to be disappointed at me now because I've been a great big jerk for what has happened, what I've caused you. I shouldn't be asking for your forgiveness.
Still I hope I could be the one keeping you company through the weekends... can I?
21st March 2008 - Friday@0250hrs
Dear...
I've not gone to bed yet...
I couldn't sleep so I thought I drop you a message...
I just saw the schedule for the movie The Water Horse.
There's a late morning session at Jusco Cinema around 11.20am this coming Saturday.
You told me before you want to watch this movie right?
Shall we catch it together?
..... or more importantly, will I ever have the chance again?
I've not gone to bed yet...
I couldn't sleep so I thought I drop you a message...
I just saw the schedule for the movie The Water Horse.
There's a late morning session at Jusco Cinema around 11.20am this coming Saturday.
You told me before you want to watch this movie right?
Shall we catch it together?
..... or more importantly, will I ever have the chance again?
I'm A Disappointment
Dear...
Have you fallen asleep?..
I've not asleep yet...
I've been doing a lot of thinking for the past 1 week or so...
I know why you are disappointed at me...
Because I'm the disappointment himself..
At times, my temper are bad till the extend that I've hurt you unknowingly. I can't contain my emotions...
At times of trouble or when you are feeling down, I'm not there for you when you needed me the most...
I've not been caring enough when you needed me the most...
I'm indecisive...
I can't properly portray my feelings towards things in life...
I'm simple minded...
I'm forgetful...
I'm reserved and old-fashioned...
I'm getting fatter by the minute...
I'm just another typical average guy...
And worst of all, we are always stuck at home during weekends as I don't have the means to bring you out...
Did I miss out anything else?
Basically, I'm a big bundle of disappointment...
And I guess sorry alone does not help much...
I'm still trying to change myself and changes doesn't happen overnight
I really want to salvage what we had and make things right, make things better...
I really do hope we can work something out, to compliment each other...
Because I still do care...
Good night, sleep tight and have a nice rest...
Have you fallen asleep?..
I've not asleep yet...
I've been doing a lot of thinking for the past 1 week or so...
I know why you are disappointed at me...
Because I'm the disappointment himself..
At times, my temper are bad till the extend that I've hurt you unknowingly. I can't contain my emotions...
At times of trouble or when you are feeling down, I'm not there for you when you needed me the most...
I've not been caring enough when you needed me the most...
I'm indecisive...
I can't properly portray my feelings towards things in life...
I'm simple minded...
I'm forgetful...
I'm reserved and old-fashioned...
I'm getting fatter by the minute...
I'm just another typical average guy...
And worst of all, we are always stuck at home during weekends as I don't have the means to bring you out...
Did I miss out anything else?
Basically, I'm a big bundle of disappointment...
And I guess sorry alone does not help much...
I'm still trying to change myself and changes doesn't happen overnight
I really want to salvage what we had and make things right, make things better...
I really do hope we can work something out, to compliment each other...
Because I still do care...
Good night, sleep tight and have a nice rest...
Thursday, March 20, 2008
20th March 2008 - Thursday@1955hrs
Dear...
I've just reached home...
Have you reached home yet or are you out having your dinner?
How's work today?
Bet you are not used to coming into office after being away for so many days le...
I've only caught a glimpse of you today...
There's so much I wanted to say to you yet I'm feel ashamed to face you...
I just want to say I'm really very sorry... will you forgive me?
Can we start all over again?...
I've just reached home...
Have you reached home yet or are you out having your dinner?
How's work today?
Bet you are not used to coming into office after being away for so many days le...
I've only caught a glimpse of you today...
There's so much I wanted to say to you yet I'm feel ashamed to face you...
I just want to say I'm really very sorry... will you forgive me?
Today was exceptionally frightening for me to go office. I can't mustered my guts or confident to face you after what had happened knowing that you'll be back in office today. I could only tell you how I feel and what I've wanted to say to you through this blog. I really hope you could read all my postings, my true feelings...
Can we start all over again?...
20th March 2008 - Thursday@1236hrs
I’m sorry of being so emotional
I’m sorry of being so possessive
I’m sorry that I cried
I’m sorry for the times without you
I’m sorry for the tears you shed
I’m sorry for the damage I made
I’m sorry I’ve made you sick
Sorry I hurt you so deep
I’m sorry for giving you sleepless nights
I’m sorry for each and every fight
I’m sorry for your pain & agony
I’m sorry for the missing harmony
I’m sorry for my selfish love
I’m sorry for not caring enough
I’m sorry for my restlessness
I’m sorry for the losing grace
I’m sorry that I made you mad
I’m sorry that you are so sad
Sorry for not giving you any happiness
Sorry because it’s my disgrace
I’m sorry for thinking of you so very much
I’m sorry I always miss your touch
I’m sorry of being so mad about you
I’m sorry for my every blue
I’m sorry of being so immature
I’m sorry for the pain that can’t be cured
I’m sorry of being myself
I’m sorry that I’ve failed
I’m sorry and sorry again
I’m sorry of being a letdown
But believe me that I love you
Should I say sorry for that too?
20th March 2008 - Thursday@0801hrs
Dear...
I've reached office le...
Where are you now?
Today's traffic was slightly heavier than usual
Hope you didn't hurt yourself if you are traveling by yourself...
It feels like its going to rain anytime soon, don't get wet ok?
I was at the checkpoint waiting for you... I've got so much to tell you...
I've reached office le...
Where are you now?
Today's traffic was slightly heavier than usual
Hope you didn't hurt yourself if you are traveling by yourself...
It feels like its going to rain anytime soon, don't get wet ok?
I was at the checkpoint waiting for you... I've got so much to tell you...
20th March 2008 - Thursday@0532hrs
Good morning dear...
Time to wake up...
I've just got out of bed...
We meet at the same place ok?
See you later...
Can I hold you again?...
Time to wake up...
I've just got out of bed...
We meet at the same place ok?
See you later...
It's Thursday and its the last working day of the week but there's nothing to be happy about. It felt like time have stopped... stopped at the very moment when I've last seen you, when we've last being in each others company, when we've last laughed together, when I've last held your hand, when I've last held you in my arms...
Can I hold you again?...
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
19th March 2008 - Wednesday@2056hrs
Hey, dear...
What are you doing right now?
Have you taken your dinner?
I've just had mine...
How's the course today?
Tomorrow is back to office, welcome back...
What are you doing right now?
Have you taken your dinner?
I've just had mine...
How's the course today?
Tomorrow is back to office, welcome back...
Although today I had a very important and high leveled management meeting in the board room but all I could do during the meeting was thinking about you. My mind kept having the thoughts of your smile, your voice, your presence...
I don't know whether will I ever have the courage to face you again when you are back in office after what had happened today. I missed you a lot and I can't stop thinking about you but I'm afraid because I'm a letdown. Deep down inside my heart, it felt remorse, regret, sadness, ashamed...
All I could ever wish for right now is for you to hear me say I'm very sorry...
Good night dear... tomorrow is a long day ahead. Get some early rest ok?
I don't know whether will I ever have the courage to face you again when you are back in office after what had happened today. I missed you a lot and I can't stop thinking about you but I'm afraid because I'm a letdown. Deep down inside my heart, it felt remorse, regret, sadness, ashamed...
All I could ever wish for right now is for you to hear me say I'm very sorry...
Good night dear... tomorrow is a long day ahead. Get some early rest ok?
19th March 2008 - Wednesday@01405hrs
It's raining outside...
How are you going to have your lunch?
What are you planning to have?
Have you brought along an umbrella with you?
Don't get caught in the rain ok?
How's your cough coming?
How are you going to have your lunch?
What are you planning to have?
Have you brought along an umbrella with you?
Don't get caught in the rain ok?
How's your cough coming?
I guess at this point I might be the person that you are least concerned about. I know you've been disturbed by my brother from time to time again and you might find me a nuisance. To be honest, I don't know what are the reasons that made him reacted this way but I believe that you have no ill intentions on what you have said or done. I believe what you have said or done was out of the moments of despairs, out of disappointments... because I believe in you...
For everything that have happened, it is me to be blame alone...
For everything that have happened, it is me to be blame alone...
19th March 2008 - Wednesday@0847hrs
Good morning dear...
I hope you had a good rest last night...
I hope what had happened didn't affect you much...
Today you are still on course right?
Have a wonderful day ahead
Remember to have something for breakfast before the class ok?
As I arrived into office, I saw your desk was a little dusty and messy. I've wipe your desk and fixed all your pin-ups. I've also brought back your jacket. I've brought it home and washed it. Hope it doesn't smell anymore. And I've cleared all the unwanted news paper laying around as well.
It nothing much but its all I can do for you now. Hope you don't mind about it...
I hope you had a good rest last night...
I hope what had happened didn't affect you much...
Today you are still on course right?
Have a wonderful day ahead
Remember to have something for breakfast before the class ok?
As I arrived into office, I saw your desk was a little dusty and messy. I've wipe your desk and fixed all your pin-ups. I've also brought back your jacket. I've brought it home and washed it. Hope it doesn't smell anymore. And I've cleared all the unwanted news paper laying around as well.
It nothing much but its all I can do for you now. Hope you don't mind about it...
19th March 2008 - Wednesday@0527hrs
I could hear my heartbeat pulse accelerating, my head is cracking, my breathe is getting shorter and harder. It was another sleepless night, another agonizing morning waking up, especially last night after what you and your dad told me.
I was shocked when you and your dad rang me up and told me what is going on beyond us. For a split second, I was happy to see your name and number appeared on my mobile again but then, I'm truly sorry for what has happened and I'm very regretful for it. I never wanted things to turn out this way. Knowing that what happened between us is just for us alone, I'll bear this responsibility... as sorrow accompanied me back to sleep...
I was shocked when you and your dad rang me up and told me what is going on beyond us. For a split second, I was happy to see your name and number appeared on my mobile again but then, I'm truly sorry for what has happened and I'm very regretful for it. I never wanted things to turn out this way. Knowing that what happened between us is just for us alone, I'll bear this responsibility... as sorrow accompanied me back to sleep...
19th March 2008 - Wednesday@0019hrs
I don't care if you are my family members or friends or in anyway I know you but please stop harassing her and her family. They don't deserve the way you are treating them now. I never ask or seek anyone one of you to talk or comment anything about her and her family so don't be a Smart Alex and butt in as if you know everything. If you got problems with it, bring it to me, I'll be more than happy to comply.
I'LL BUST YOUR PUNK ASS IF YOU DISTURB THEM.
YOU'VE BEEN WARNED.
YOU'VE BEEN WARNED.
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
18th March 2008 - Tuesday@2126hrs
After knocking off from work, as I was walking across the causeway bridge, a flashback occurred and had brought me back to a moment last week while we were on our way to work on a busy Monday morning.
We were in the bus on our way to the train station. There were no seats available and you had difficulty in balancing yourself in the shaky situation. It was then I held you in my arms, we've hugged each other closely. I was holding on you so tightly, never wanted you to fall, never want to let you go... I've prayed for the journey to have no ends. That way, I can hold you in my arms for as long as I could...
It was this moment that made me realize something and that is I was so deeply in love with you that I wasn't aware myself this whole time... how much this relationship meant to me...
Do you remember it?
Do you know that I've cried for you every day and night?
Do you know that my heart is still crying inside?
Do you know that I still love you?
Good night dear and have a sweet dreams. Rest well and hope tomorrow will be a better day...
We were in the bus on our way to the train station. There were no seats available and you had difficulty in balancing yourself in the shaky situation. It was then I held you in my arms, we've hugged each other closely. I was holding on you so tightly, never wanted you to fall, never want to let you go... I've prayed for the journey to have no ends. That way, I can hold you in my arms for as long as I could...
It was this moment that made me realize something and that is I was so deeply in love with you that I wasn't aware myself this whole time... how much this relationship meant to me...
Do you remember it?
Do you know that I've cried for you every day and night?
Do you know that my heart is still crying inside?
Do you know that I still love you?
Good night dear and have a sweet dreams. Rest well and hope tomorrow will be a better day...
18th March 2008 - Tuesday@1515hrs
Being in the office without you, without knowing how your are doing at this very moment feels so vacant, so vacuumed, so deserted...
The day seems to be very draggy, a second felt like a minute, a minutes felt like an hour, an hour felt like eternity...
Every time I passes by your cube, so many things went through my mind, the times we were together, the memories that we've shared, our dreams, my thoughts and feelings for you...
The longer I wonder near your cube, the more I think of you. Wondering what are you doing right now?...
The day seems to be very draggy, a second felt like a minute, a minutes felt like an hour, an hour felt like eternity...
Every time I passes by your cube, so many things went through my mind, the times we were together, the memories that we've shared, our dreams, my thoughts and feelings for you...
The longer I wonder near your cube, the more I think of you. Wondering what are you doing right now?...
How is your course coming? How's the lecturer like?
Any breaks in between?
Remember to drink plenty of water ok?
What did you have for your lunch? Was it good?
What time does your course ends?
How are you going home later on?
You know you got low blood pressure so pls do get something to munch along the way home ok?
Be careful on your way back...
18th March 2008 - Tuesday@1101hrs
I look up
as a tear rolls slowly
down my cheek
I think about better days
and wonder if I'll feel that way again
you look at me
with those eyes I know so well
always sweet, so caring and lovable
as though you're always in control of us
But not today
not now
Now you look so far away
like for once as if I never existed
in your heart, in your life, in this world
I gaze at you from afar
looking deep
Hoping to understand
why you've said those things you did
I wonder for a moment
if this is all a dream
if I shall wake in the morning
and be relieved
you look at me
with a confusion I have never seen
slowly pull me towards you
and wipe the tears from my cheek
18th March 2008 - Tuesday@0757hrs
I've just reached my cube but earlier on instead of making my way directly to office, I've went to the bus stop just outside my home where I used to wait for you, hoping...
Sitting there alone, unable to bottled the feeling inside of me, tears rolled while listening to the songs we used to sing together...
... Good morning, dear... I was there, looking out for you... did u saw me?
Sitting there alone, unable to bottled the feeling inside of me, tears rolled while listening to the songs we used to sing together...
... Good morning, dear... I was there, looking out for you... did u saw me?
18th March 2008 - Tuesday@0548hrs
It was another sleepless night. Haven't been sleeping or eating well.
It was almost time to get out of bed and get ready for work. But I was hoping more that at this time I could call you on your mobile and telling you "Dear, time to wake up le..."
But all there is now are tears to start the day and end the night...
Good morning dear... Hope you enjoy your course later...
It was almost time to get out of bed and get ready for work. But I was hoping more that at this time I could call you on your mobile and telling you "Dear, time to wake up le..."
But all there is now are tears to start the day and end the night...
Good morning dear... Hope you enjoy your course later...
Monday, March 17, 2008
17th March 2008 - Monday@2130hrs
Coming back home was as difficult as going to work. The absence of your laughter in the air along the way home makes it even difficult for me to bear the feeling of sadness in my heart.
I just had my dinner. Usually by this time, you would call up to check on me and we would be chatting over the phone or MSN until way past our bed time. But now, everything seems so quiet even with the radio on.
My mobile phone doesn't rings anymore, no more MSN nudge, no more checking out how fat my stomach have grown today via my webcam... Just me in my room, by myself...
How was your day?
Those were just some of the many things that I wish I could tell it to you myself... Can you hear it?
I just had my dinner. Usually by this time, you would call up to check on me and we would be chatting over the phone or MSN until way past our bed time. But now, everything seems so quiet even with the radio on.
My mobile phone doesn't rings anymore, no more MSN nudge, no more checking out how fat my stomach have grown today via my webcam... Just me in my room, by myself...
How was your day?
Have you had your dinner yet?
How was it? Hope it was a good and enjoyable one
You'll be attending course tomorrow, do you know the way there?
Have you packed your things for tomorrow?
If there's nothing important, try to get some early rest ok?
Don't stay up too late
Watch yourself when you are crossing the borders tomorrow
How was it? Hope it was a good and enjoyable one
You'll be attending course tomorrow, do you know the way there?
Have you packed your things for tomorrow?
If there's nothing important, try to get some early rest ok?
Don't stay up too late
Watch yourself when you are crossing the borders tomorrow
Those were just some of the many things that I wish I could tell it to you myself... Can you hear it?
It's been a busy day
time has quickly gone
On your pillow lay your head
in your mind put a song
Allow peace to seep inside
let the angels lull you to sleep
Leave your cares behind you
for tomorrow they will keep
Good night, sweet dreams
go have your rest
As you arise tomorrow
you'll be your best
Good Night Dear...
time has quickly gone
On your pillow lay your head
in your mind put a song
Allow peace to seep inside
let the angels lull you to sleep
Leave your cares behind you
for tomorrow they will keep
Good night, sweet dreams
go have your rest
As you arise tomorrow
you'll be your best
Good Night Dear...
17th March 2008 - Monday@1455hrs
Lunch break was never the same without your company. I've missed the times we've ate together, went window shopping together and talked almost everything and anything that caught our attentions. I've missed you a lot...
What are you doing right now? I'm thinking about you...
What are you doing right now? I'm thinking about you...
17th March 2008 - Monday@1202hrs
It's lunch time and I've realized that you are working from home today... Hope you had something nice for lunch.
How's your cough coming? Remember to take your med and drink plenty of water ok? get more if you are running out of it... And if you have the time later, take a short rest as you get tired easily...
How's your cough coming? Remember to take your med and drink plenty of water ok? get more if you are running out of it... And if you have the time later, take a short rest as you get tired easily...
17th March 2008 - Monday@0750hrs
It was 7.50am and never would I have thought coming to office was this difficult. My mind was filled with the thoughts of you ever since I woke up but again technically, I have not been sleeping for a few days.
Wondering whether will you be coming to office today as I was hoping to see you even if just for a few seconds. And at the same time, I was worrying whether were you caught in the massive human jam at JB causeway as today is a Monday and just so happened that schools reopened as well. Hope you did not caught yourself in the pool of human bodies just to get onto the bus.
As I make my way to my cube, the first thing that I saw while setting up my laptops was your little book that you have kept all my little notes to you. Perhaps the only thing left of you that I treasured right now. As I opened the book and flipped through the pages, tears rolled down my cheek… as I wish to turn back the hands of time or even a chance to start anew…
Good morning dear…
Sunday, March 16, 2008
16th March 2008 - Sunday@2346hrs
I have been driving around aimlessly with tears lingering in my eyes and little would I know, I have end up at your place not too long ago. It's been a while since I'm at your place at this time of the night.
I've stopped behind your home where I can see your room, your room light was still lit.
I was hoping so much that I could be there to tuck you into bed, give you a kiss on your forehead, telling you how much I love you and wish you good night. But all I could do was to gaze at your window, hoping to able to catch a glimpse of you...
As I drove away from you place, tears started flowing down my face again... all the way home
Good night dear, rest well...
I've stopped behind your home where I can see your room, your room light was still lit.
I was hoping so much that I could be there to tuck you into bed, give you a kiss on your forehead, telling you how much I love you and wish you good night. But all I could do was to gaze at your window, hoping to able to catch a glimpse of you...
As I drove away from you place, tears started flowing down my face again... all the way home
Good night dear, rest well...
16th March 2008 - Sunday@1651hrs
A few weeks ago, we had an argument so intense that it actually hurt the both of us. Since then, though she put up a brave front to be happy, deep down inside, I know she was still upset.
As our 9th month anniversary drew closer, I've decided to put up something special, something that I hope cheer her up and patch things back. I have planned to bring her to my friends newly opened cafe and I have also invited a few of my good friends that she knew to join along and to witness what I have prepared for the dinner. With the help of all of my friends, I have prepared a video that contains me playing her favorite piano piece "Can't Help Falling In Love" and also message of apology that was meant to be aired over dinner, to show that though at times sparks may flare between us, I meant her no harm and I still love her no less from the day we were together. I wanted to tell her that I'm ready to sacrifice everything and do whatever it takes to take care and protect her full time...
But little would I knew things had turned for the worse. After I have got back from the final preparation for our anniversary dinner, she broke the news telling me that she want it over between us....
It was then, for 2 days straight, never had I cried so intensely...
I was hoping I could walk in the rain because that way, no one will know that I'm crying...
My eyes felt as if they were burning and tears were flowing endlessly... till there were none to shed.
Even though she have told me she had made up her mind, still I went to her place hoping we can talk things out. I've waited and waited, outside her home in the middle of the night just to see her but she never appeared...
As painful as it gets, I've went back home and out of sorrow and sadness, I've went back to her place again to return the things that she ever gave me just as she did when she was upset previously.
It was her that made me believed that even if I was a pauper, she was my princess. And she still is... as I continued crying for her.
Happy Anniversary Dear... Hope today was a good day for you...
As our 9th month anniversary drew closer, I've decided to put up something special, something that I hope cheer her up and patch things back. I have planned to bring her to my friends newly opened cafe and I have also invited a few of my good friends that she knew to join along and to witness what I have prepared for the dinner. With the help of all of my friends, I have prepared a video that contains me playing her favorite piano piece "Can't Help Falling In Love" and also message of apology that was meant to be aired over dinner, to show that though at times sparks may flare between us, I meant her no harm and I still love her no less from the day we were together. I wanted to tell her that I'm ready to sacrifice everything and do whatever it takes to take care and protect her full time...
But little would I knew things had turned for the worse. After I have got back from the final preparation for our anniversary dinner, she broke the news telling me that she want it over between us....
It was then, for 2 days straight, never had I cried so intensely...
I was hoping I could walk in the rain because that way, no one will know that I'm crying...
My eyes felt as if they were burning and tears were flowing endlessly... till there were none to shed.
Even though she have told me she had made up her mind, still I went to her place hoping we can talk things out. I've waited and waited, outside her home in the middle of the night just to see her but she never appeared...
As painful as it gets, I've went back home and out of sorrow and sadness, I've went back to her place again to return the things that she ever gave me just as she did when she was upset previously.
It was her that made me believed that even if I was a pauper, she was my princess. And she still is... as I continued crying for her.
Happy Anniversary Dear... Hope today was a good day for you...
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