Dear Dear..
I've just got back from the specialist...
I've got some bad news to tell you...
Ask you something...
Did you ever experienced back at school during meet the parents day and you found out that you had a lot of fails in your report cards...
And you know that is the end of the world for you...
Well, my case is something like that, only worst...
You are the first to know as of this postings...
Remember those times when I'm having weak heart problem and occasionally passed out at home?
The doctor said that I'm suffering from a terminal heart problem...
My heart may fail anytime due to the cells in the heart muscles has disorientated from gene mutations...
It is called Hypertrophic Cardiomyopathy or for short, HCM
My heart may stop functioning anytime...
Those who suffer from it usually dies in their 20s...
The chances of me surviving through it is very slim as there are no medication or treatment known at the moment that could stop my gene from mutations...
Every time I have relapse, it means my heart muscle are degenerating...
The doctor was kind enough to even let me know how I would die in the end to prepare me for it..
Either from a heart attack or my heart can just stop anytime quietly...
I've finally understand why the doctor asked me to bring along a loved ones along for this when he called me yesterday...
When the doctor broke the news to me, I was hoping you were there to hear it...
It felt as if time has frozen...
It was more than I could handle...
I'm basically waiting for my time to go...
But I had so much I've yet to say to you...
